THE HOME

 Lately, I have been listening to a song 'Home' by Charlie Puth and Hikaru Utada. There is a line that says, 'No matter how good this is, it could never satisfy when it’s You that I’m missing.'  My past stories were heavy and painful, but I see them now as the map that led me back. I want to spend my remaining days walking toward that home, filling every moment with His light.

For two decades, I built houses that weren't mine—houses made of debt, family obligations, and academic degrees. They were impressive to the world, but they were hollow and cold inside. My life was cold. I did not have a home, indeed. I realize now that the HOME I have been searching for isn't a place or a status. But it is the path back to God. 

Reflecting further on these lyrics, I find their meaning deepens when I consider my desire to return to God. The powerful line—"No matter how good this is, it could never satisfy when it's you that I'm missing" [00:10]—perfectly matches my realisation that outward success or rose-colored lenses [00:06] cannot fill the space meant for a deeper connection.

The idea of a house turning into a home [00:37] now means that God's presence—the 'soul' [00:54]—is what transforms my life into something real. Returning to God after hardship is not failure but understanding. The song reminds me that even when things feel 'cold without the soul' [00:51], longing points me in the right direction. It's a gift to know what truly matters.

In the Soul Meter workshop, Bunda discusses the Spirit of Universal. The song reminds me that in Australia, a house is just a building without a soul. Even in a world-class university, I felt homeless, filled with anger. Discovering my Jati Diri was finally opening the door to God. Now, I am walking Home. Only the Divine satisfies. My life's mission is simple: to live for Him.

Today, my perspective has shifted completely. Guided by the wisdom of Bunda Arsaningsih and the clarity of the Soul Meter, I have stopped trying to build temporary shelters in this world. Instead, I am looking forward to my end home.

Now, I measure my happiness before I speak,

Now, I help others from a place of abundance, not debt.

My Home now isn't a building or a title. I started walking to the ultimate state of Happy 10, a life lived in total surrender and alignment with God. My past stories, as painful as they were, were simply the storms I had to navigate to realize that the only destination that matters is Him. I am blessed to finally know the way, and I choose to fill every remaining day walking toward that eternal peace.

May my path ahead be filled with peace and the true happiness I’ve been seeking.

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